emotional whoopsie-daisy …

Yesterday I was an emotional wreck: unable to think clearly, escape my sadness, talk or listen without crying, or be present for Kirk and the dogs I had to take a mental health day from work — everything — except texting Thomas and Shannon messages of still feeling survivor’s guilt. All because it was the five year anniversary of Dion’s passing.

Whoops. TODAY is the five year anniversary of 08/09/09.

Today I was outside picking tomatoes, okra, and eggplant; and tending to the latest squash and cucumber plants. I was able to actually enjoy the day today — the real anniversary — after having my breakdown yesterday.

And I thought of baby elephants … just like he told me to do when ever I am sad.

“Because who can be sad when they think of baby elephants?”

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One response to “emotional whoopsie-daisy …

  1. Scott- I was really down yesterday too because of your post.  I am so sorry that this happens to you every year – this year worse than others, I guess.  I feel that I was unable to be of any solace or help to you then –  I felt blocked by something- soon to find out that it was because I lacked so much knowledge of you and where you were and what was going on.  I felt there was a huge back story – didn’t think you would be able to regurgitate it all at that time – and was I even ready???  I feel I failed you then and am so sorry.  I have always loved you soooo much and have always been so proud of you – maybe those feelings caused me to feel safer in the fiction than the truth – and that was a disservice to you. I know Dion was such a great and important part of your life and should remain so.  I just pray that the pain resolves to joy soon.

      Ellyn Wood    Retired and LOVING it!    “I think that if ever a mortal heard the voice of God it would be in a garden at the cool of the day.”

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